Not the CoD, GTA, or any other hard core gaming people though. I'm not a total game nerd. I'm like a game drifter. Wait, that should be a thing. LOL. If you know me good, you would know that I have been to so many games that I can't remember all of them. Well, maybe if I try hard enough I could remember all of them.
Growing up in the most unfortunate country when it comes to technology made me the way I am. The first time I actually first held a computer wan when I was in my first year of high school. Its a very long story as to how we manage to acquire one. It involve my aunty getting scammed by my uncle (Siblings) and forcibly took that PC from his house and my dad buying it instead.
I was 13 years old and that was year 2003? can't remember the actual date but I was stoke since we are the first one to have a private PC in the whole town. Yes people, this is year 2003. I'm not kidding.
At first I was all excited but what do I know really. I was excited for no good reason other than to show off to my friends that we have a computer. I don't even know what computers do at that time.
That was the case until my brother (3rd oldest, I'm 4th and we are six) installed one game after another. There are 5 that I can remember. First was Call of Duty (idk which one), GTA III: Vice City, Sims II + Vacation expansion pack, Counter Strike, and Rouge Sphere.
Not bad selection, eh? I actually finishes that CoD. I was very proud of my self from doing that. Well, of course I omitted the fact that I died at least a thousand times. The GTA was a different story. I never finished it since I just play it to wreck havoc and kill hookers. My brother also have theses cheats posted on the wall. I remember the day when I was trying some cheats on the wall. It was the best cheat combination I ever did. The first one was a cheat "helloladies". I remember this cheat since I used this a lot to attract hookers to kill. If you don't know what this cheat does then its a cheat that magnets girls. So you are basically a walking harem when you use this. Second, I cant remember what it was but its a cheat so that everybody is armed. The third cheat is for my own safety, I cant remember but I think it was "thuglife" or something. This cheat just gives you all sort of ammo with unlimited bullets. And last but not the least "everybodyhatesme". I will give you a minute to process...
Its pretty much chaos.
If you don't get it since you don't play GTA or you are so honest and would never cheat or just plain lost since I did not explain the last cheat, well, please bang your head on the wall. If it still doesn't work then fine, I'll explain. The fourth cheat is a magnet to people to kill you. It was my best discovery. It feels like I was in a movie or something. Me against the World.
I didn't played RS since that game blows. I remember my brothers playing it until morning because they wanted to finish the game in one go because you cant bloody save you progress. There is also a ton of bugs and its slow as a slug.
I suck at counter strike and I flourish in Sims. I also just remember that we have a 6th game in that computer. It was Diablo II. I was great at it. I think that was the start of my fixation with RPG's.
As you already notice, my writing is getting shittier by the minute. And also, this post is already long enough that most of you didn't bother reading the entire thing so I will stop here.
Next time would be my adventure in game hopping. Wait, this really should be a thing. Anyway, that's it for now. Ciao!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Calming Down
I, for some reason, took a week off from work. Thinking that it would be good for me before crazy comes. For normal people it is called Christmas season. So I did. Its cool. I didn't go away because I didn't think it through and I just want to do things that wouldn't cost me any money, in my case, staying at home.
For normal people, specially social and hardworking one's, it would be boring. For me its a bliss. You see, I work in a supermarket and things go crazy specially in the Deli. Its so draining not because of the work but because of the emotional stress it gives you. I barely have time to talk to me family let alone socialize.
So to make up for the boredom I started watching The Walking Dead. I'm at the last episode of season two but before that I have to calm down. I'm not writing this because I have an opinion to share or that I want to discuss the series. No, I'm not even gonna talk about being in love with Daryl or his hotness. I'm just writing this to keep my head leveled and my heart calm. And I bought a shuffle. Nothing fancy. I got a free engraving so I put "Certavi et vici". It means "I have fought and conquered". I don't know why. I'm gonna watch the last episode now that I'm calm.
For normal people, specially social and hardworking one's, it would be boring. For me its a bliss. You see, I work in a supermarket and things go crazy specially in the Deli. Its so draining not because of the work but because of the emotional stress it gives you. I barely have time to talk to me family let alone socialize.
So to make up for the boredom I started watching The Walking Dead. I'm at the last episode of season two but before that I have to calm down. I'm not writing this because I have an opinion to share or that I want to discuss the series. No, I'm not even gonna talk about being in love with Daryl or his hotness. I'm just writing this to keep my head leveled and my heart calm. And I bought a shuffle. Nothing fancy. I got a free engraving so I put "Certavi et vici". It means "I have fought and conquered". I don't know why. I'm gonna watch the last episode now that I'm calm.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
A letter to my dear cousin who unfriended me in facebook.
Dear Kathleen,
I don't really know how to start. I have so many question and I'm sure you don't have any for me since you just suddenly unfriend me. I know its just Facebook but if you look into it, its the best way to communicate with you and everyone else in the Philippines.
When we are little, you and me are almost twins. We always play together even though our families are always fighting each other. I treasure our friendship more than I should. I ignore your parents insult to my parents and vise versa so I don't have to fight with you too. Jay use to say that she views our friendship like a stone, despite the constant clash we still manage to hold on to whats important. Now I just think Jay saw it in a different way than what it really was. She probably saw me hugging you, not seeing you pushing me.
All these years I think of you and I swear to my self I will bring you here in New Zealand. I even told Jay that when I have a stable job you will be my first target. To pull you out of there and give you a better living over here. But no, I don't think that's happening anymore. What will I have evaporated when you choose to be judgmental like your jealous mother.
I always believed that you are different. I hoped anyway. I hope that you can be open minded when your mother spread false rumors about my family and when your father ordered your brothers to destroy our fence. Still, I cling to my faith in you. When your mother verbally abused my aunt who is living now in our house your eyes are clouded by jealousy, just like the rest of your family, and didn't see the reality.
It was never my intention to make you choose between my family and yours but I just hoped that maybe you don't have to take sides. But what really hurts me the most is that you forgot that I haven't done anything to hurt you. I've done my best to smile and be friendly to your family no matter what they say behind my back just so I can spend time with you. You forgot that I love you and I miss your company dearly. You forgot that all this time I still defend you from the family. But you abandoned me. You left me to fall.
In time I hope that you will realize. I hope that when that time comes its not yet too late.
Love you always,
Me
I don't really know how to start. I have so many question and I'm sure you don't have any for me since you just suddenly unfriend me. I know its just Facebook but if you look into it, its the best way to communicate with you and everyone else in the Philippines.
When we are little, you and me are almost twins. We always play together even though our families are always fighting each other. I treasure our friendship more than I should. I ignore your parents insult to my parents and vise versa so I don't have to fight with you too. Jay use to say that she views our friendship like a stone, despite the constant clash we still manage to hold on to whats important. Now I just think Jay saw it in a different way than what it really was. She probably saw me hugging you, not seeing you pushing me.
All these years I think of you and I swear to my self I will bring you here in New Zealand. I even told Jay that when I have a stable job you will be my first target. To pull you out of there and give you a better living over here. But no, I don't think that's happening anymore. What will I have evaporated when you choose to be judgmental like your jealous mother.
I always believed that you are different. I hoped anyway. I hope that you can be open minded when your mother spread false rumors about my family and when your father ordered your brothers to destroy our fence. Still, I cling to my faith in you. When your mother verbally abused my aunt who is living now in our house your eyes are clouded by jealousy, just like the rest of your family, and didn't see the reality.
It was never my intention to make you choose between my family and yours but I just hoped that maybe you don't have to take sides. But what really hurts me the most is that you forgot that I haven't done anything to hurt you. I've done my best to smile and be friendly to your family no matter what they say behind my back just so I can spend time with you. You forgot that I love you and I miss your company dearly. You forgot that all this time I still defend you from the family. But you abandoned me. You left me to fall.
In time I hope that you will realize. I hope that when that time comes its not yet too late.
Love you always,
Me
Monday, October 21, 2013
A Way Out
A few days ago a friend of mine, who I haven't spoken to for a month or so, gave me a call. It was weird because even since she and my brother broke up we hardly ever spoken. I was mostly busy in my job and she was doing her own thing.
I was shock because in those 6 weeks that we haven't spoke she went to Auckland without even telling me. I though "Is this it? Is this the end of our friendship?". For a while it hurts to even think about it so, like every one of my problems, I forget about it. Not by drinking, no sir, instead I surf the internet.
What is even more shocking is the reason for her call. You see, I got stock on that dead end job of mine for almost 3 years now and even before I already keep telling my friends how I hated the job and that if there is anything else better in this small town I would gladly take it. So, when she asked me if I want a new job would I take it. My heart went into an over drive almost immediately. It was like an automatic hammer was set loose in my rib cage and firing nails all over the place.
She didn't tell what it was at first because she wants to know if I was welling. Was I welling? If wasn't inside the supermarket that time I would have jumped all over the apples and oranges. Turns out she went to Auckland not for a holiday but for a training. I was stoke for her since she also have the drowning feeling whenever she thinks about her future, but now she is so happy and optimistic. It was crazy. She is not the brave kind of woman, so was I, but she is a different kind of chicken. She once broke up with her boyfriend because her bf leaves in another city. What was that? Did you say "That's not so hard, why don't she move in with him?" Well, that's where the chicken comes out. She broke up with him because she doesn't want to live in a place where she knows no one. But now, she is traveling from one city to another.
And that's the job that she is offering me. Well, she's not really offering it to me. She just gave my name to her boss so he could call me and arrange an interview. But since then, my heart haven't stopped from hammering. And now, when I think about my future I no longer see the same thing I did today. Instead, I see a me who is a professional and working my ass off but still having a good time. Earns a lot, spends little, can finally afford a house, new car, and wearing clean black suit with blood red top and proud parents to call me from time to time.
So finally, if they ever call me, I would be on top of the world. This is like opportunity slapping me in the face and, with all my might, I would grab it by the nose and bring it home with me because, baby, I would fuck opportunity.
I was shock because in those 6 weeks that we haven't spoke she went to Auckland without even telling me. I though "Is this it? Is this the end of our friendship?". For a while it hurts to even think about it so, like every one of my problems, I forget about it. Not by drinking, no sir, instead I surf the internet.
What is even more shocking is the reason for her call. You see, I got stock on that dead end job of mine for almost 3 years now and even before I already keep telling my friends how I hated the job and that if there is anything else better in this small town I would gladly take it. So, when she asked me if I want a new job would I take it. My heart went into an over drive almost immediately. It was like an automatic hammer was set loose in my rib cage and firing nails all over the place.
She didn't tell what it was at first because she wants to know if I was welling. Was I welling? If wasn't inside the supermarket that time I would have jumped all over the apples and oranges. Turns out she went to Auckland not for a holiday but for a training. I was stoke for her since she also have the drowning feeling whenever she thinks about her future, but now she is so happy and optimistic. It was crazy. She is not the brave kind of woman, so was I, but she is a different kind of chicken. She once broke up with her boyfriend because her bf leaves in another city. What was that? Did you say "That's not so hard, why don't she move in with him?" Well, that's where the chicken comes out. She broke up with him because she doesn't want to live in a place where she knows no one. But now, she is traveling from one city to another.
And that's the job that she is offering me. Well, she's not really offering it to me. She just gave my name to her boss so he could call me and arrange an interview. But since then, my heart haven't stopped from hammering. And now, when I think about my future I no longer see the same thing I did today. Instead, I see a me who is a professional and working my ass off but still having a good time. Earns a lot, spends little, can finally afford a house, new car, and wearing clean black suit with blood red top and proud parents to call me from time to time.
So finally, if they ever call me, I would be on top of the world. This is like opportunity slapping me in the face and, with all my might, I would grab it by the nose and bring it home with me because, baby, I would fuck opportunity.
Friday, October 18, 2013
My Biggest Regret
About a year ago i started to watch a tv series. I will not say names but I can tell you a few clues: 1) its about vampires and all other fantasy creatures 2) have lots of sex in it and 3) its based on a book. If you still dont get it I would have to ask you how you get WiFi under a rock. Lets proceed.
I borrowed a book, or two or three, from the Library, for thirty days, because I got curious how the books defer from the series. Would it still have that much nudity? did the things happened in the series really happened in the book? well, I didnt find out. I went home, start to read and in that moment I realize I cant read the books if I actually saw the movie or the series first. Which is nuts! me reading the book before watching the movie/series first is not a problem, but the other way around? not going to happen. So I started to read the first chapter and I put it down. I can no longer feel the thrill of reading because the series ruined it for me.
It was about a week after that that I have to leave for a week because I'm going to my friend in the city for a holiday. it was nice and awesome and exciting not to be bound by the small area of a small town in which I was living. So I forgot about the books. When I get back I did not return them hoping that I would summon the enthusiasm to read it, I didnt. Instead, I just let it gather dust under my small, soft, single bed and the month have passed on.
I borrowed a book, or two or three, from the Library, for thirty days, because I got curious how the books defer from the series. Would it still have that much nudity? did the things happened in the series really happened in the book? well, I didnt find out. I went home, start to read and in that moment I realize I cant read the books if I actually saw the movie or the series first. Which is nuts! me reading the book before watching the movie/series first is not a problem, but the other way around? not going to happen. So I started to read the first chapter and I put it down. I can no longer feel the thrill of reading because the series ruined it for me.
It was about a week after that that I have to leave for a week because I'm going to my friend in the city for a holiday. it was nice and awesome and exciting not to be bound by the small area of a small town in which I was living. So I forgot about the books. When I get back I did not return them hoping that I would summon the enthusiasm to read it, I didnt. Instead, I just let it gather dust under my small, soft, single bed and the month have passed on.
And then another.
In the library's policy, one day late is 20 cents. I had three so that would be 60 cents a day. multiply it for, atleast, 40 days. Now do the math since I didnt, afraid of what the outcome would be. Well, ok, I would do it. OMG! 24 dollars? I knew I shouldn't have done it. its all your fault! You made me do it!!!
haha... I have gone nuts for a second. anyway, now i know how much I owe the library. Now I know that I can buy two books of my choosing in the internet. Well, I guess the question is "Should I be an honorable person and pay the fine?"
I am a good person, but I am human too. I have flaws. With that in thought, I try as much as possible to do good. I still do so my answer is Hell No!
Why? I... I just forgot what I was gonna write, tsk, it was awesome too. Well, ok. call me anything you like, you are just a random person over the other side of the world and maybe before you can read this, years have already passed and I finally won the Lotto and paid (and bought) the Library!
Either way, I will pay the Library. Eventually, but not today, or tomorrow. Probably when I'm too desperate. Not gonna happen anytime soon. Sigh. I hope that you will learn from my silly experience. And I hope, without me telling you, that you would understand how I felt and why I regretted it the most. If you did, you must be like me. And then I am glad, you just got a peek inside the silly heart of a silly writer.
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