"Life is short"
that, we all know. but when i listened to Taylor Swift's Safe and Sound which reminded me of the hunger game trilogy i felt like i've been wasting my life all this time. i felt like i haven't accomplish anything in my 21 years of life. i feel unworthy of the life that i was given.
yes i got a job but its not a career. worthless
yes i got qualifications but i haven't use any of them. worthless
i know that the problem lies within me. i know that more than anyone. although i blame other things for my mistakes and laziness i still know it enough to think about it. but the thing is thinking is not enough to move me away from this god forsaken place that i am in.
i remember in the book that katniss strive to support her family on her own. if i was in her shoes i would have been one of those girls that line up to that capitol officer door to be fucked for money. not because i'm that kind of a person but because i suck at making traps and my aim is 5x worse. i can grow plants but i probably be growing poison berries instead of of raspberries because of my lack of knowledge on that field. i would probably the first one to die in the game if i were in it.
although i am a bit ruthless and violent i would still hesitate to kill. well, not really if im killing fox face, or the bitch from district one or the guy who killed rue. but still, they have lives just like i did, a family who is waiting for me to come back, dreams that want to reach.
as for now all i wish is that the world wouldn't have to reach that state where equality is dominating. so if the mayans are wrong, lets stay together. be fair, be loving, be caring. even if you dont believe in god, he still loves us.
but seriously, kill me before they kill freedom.
