To tell you the truth I don't really have any. I never really have a certain path that I follow. I don't know how that came to be but I just don't. I guess thats the reason why I'm adrift. I dont have a destination nor a pull. I just know know what I want and that doesn't necessarily means I'll get there.
Having no path is horrible but at times it's what you need. When everything is out of proportion and you just need to stop, breath and pull it together. I know hiding inside a shell is the cowardly way but not all of us is as strong. Some people just need to get out of that chaos and breath. I know I do. I did and man I've at it for too long that I lost my purpose. I wandered too far from that path. I either have to find it or make another one. The latter seems to be harder but I think its the fresh start that I need and maybe so do you.
So if you are like me; out of shape, out of money; out of proportion, get moving. The clock is ticking.
And if you are really like me then you've already told your self that, a hundred times or more.
I keep telling my self that I just need to get through the holiday that we were suppose to have a year ago and I will get out of this dead end job. If that's you too then you've got to admit that holiday is not gonna happen. That money that you're suppose to be saving isn't gonna make it anyways since you keep nicking from it, a hundred at a time. You might as well admit that this holiday is sitting you back. Save that money. Find a job that you would be less miserable at and make the best out of it. The holiday can wait for a few more years.
I know its easier said than done but you've got to try. I know I will, starting now. After I post this blog I will update my CV. Find a job and hope to got I get it.
Then, If I get it. I will move out of the house. Get a dog and walk it every day. Do my Christmas shopping starting April. If I ever have savings after all that I will buy an awesome camera and travel. First, drive around New Zealand. Then to Australia, then to the whole world.
By the time I hit forty, I would be happy of the experience that I had and begin to slow down. Maybe do charitable world. Work my ass off and be happy. I really do hope that. With all my heart, but I don't know how to start. I guess I'll just have to do as what my boss do, "Wing it". So here I go...
Change beginning in 3...2...1...
